氣味

不知怎的，最近買的菸都是香料菸。

也許是因為害怕旁人對於我身上帶有繆思獨有的體味大驚小怪。

折衷的結果是，我無法完整留住女神的恩賜。

還不至於太糟，但感覺的確不好。

我憎恨無法完整表達我心中想法卻又執著於想說出什麼的夜晚。

然後連文字都沾上香草味。

頻率

這種事情很難說，頻率不對，雜音就跟著多了起來。

我討厭這樣。

聽音樂吧，聽說這首歌的旋律跟心跳的節奏一樣。

我希望，我不要再繼續跳tone了。

Shadow Of The Day

[Chester Bennington]

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

Pink cards and flowers on your window,
Your friends all plead for you to stay
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you,
The sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

[Guitar solo]

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in grey,
And the sun will set for you.

逆蝶

我想，我們都是同樣的。

有著同樣的狂想，試圖順應自己的欲望。

只是在別人眼中，那叫做叛逆。

我只是不懂，覺得我們叛逆的人們是否也曾經想要叛逆？

順從他人意見的人，就像一輩子都困在繭裡的毛毛蟲，長不出屬於自己的翅膀。

勇於叛逆的人，才有自己的雙翼。

儘管翅膀可能會斷。

儘管花紋在別人眼裡是罪惡的醜陋。

罪紋蝶又何妨？

調酒

今天晚上小六請我喝了杯調酒。伏特加調雪碧，感覺不錯。

不過喝的人卻是千愁萬緒。

憂慮著什麼，他答不出來。只知道感情事陷入後徒增煩惱。

想解脫，卻又找不到出口，於是只能讓酒精製造幻想，找個安慰。

很可憐，但我幫不上忙。

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小六調的酒其實有點太甜。喝完之後有點膩。

人生不就是如此？

工作是酒，愛情則是調製品。

純酒麻痺人心，太多的調製品只會膩人。

該怎麼才能調的剛剛好，學問可大了。

我還沒有那種能耐，但我會慢慢學。

慢慢來，比較快。

認真

好久沒認真看書了，感覺像是上輩子的事情。

認真果然需要練習，今天老是分心真不可取。

要牽掛的東西太多，浪費的時間卻著實不少。

跟個笨蛋一樣老是後悔。

我的風格怎麼變這樣了金害。

躁。

最近又進入了這種時期。

不睡覺因為根本不會累。

夜很安穩而我卻想著不確定的事，反正睡著也是無所事事。

夢很平靜但我卻試圖弄皺這世界，反正醒著也是看它崩毀。

不如榨乾我自己。

Bleed It Out

[Mike Shinoda]

Yea here we go for the hundredth time,
Hand grenade pins in every line,
Throw 'em up and let something shine.
Going out of my fucking mind.
Filthy mouth, no excuse.
Find a new place to hang this noose.
String me up from atop these roofs.
Knot it tight so I won't get loose.
Truth is you can stop and stare,
Run myself out and no one cares.
Dug a trench out, laid down there
With a shovel up out to reach somewhere.
Yea someone pour it in,
Make it a dirt dance floor again.
Say your prayers and stomp it out,
When they bring that chorus in.

[Chester Bennington]

(Chorus)
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

[Mike Shinoda]

I bleed it out.
Go, stop the show.
Chop your words in a sloppy flow.
Shotgun I pump, lock and load,
Cock it back and then watch it go.
Mama help me, I've been cursed,
Death is rolling in every verse.
Candypaint on his brand new hearse.
Can't contain him, he knows he works.
I hope this hurts, I won't mind.
Doesn't matter how hard I try.

Half the words don't mean a thing,
And I know that I won't be satisfied.
So why, try ignoring him.
Make your dirt dance floor again.
Say your prayers and stomp it out,
When they bring that chorus in.

[Chester Bennington]

(Chorus)
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out.
I've opened up these skies,
I'll make you face this.
I pulled myself so far,
I'll make you face this now.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away.
I bleed it out,
Digging deeper just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away,
Just to throw it away.

I bleed it out. [3X]